Life pt. 1

   It is early, and it was still early when I woke up two hours ago. I am in class, I work hard in school, I study, I do work, and I also struggle to try and be the best, but when I log onto my school site and check my grades you would think I have never even been to class, and that makes me so sick. That entire situation makes me question effort, makes me feel worthless, afraid, and also makes me angry and want to give up, all of these things happen in my mind in a second or two. Aside from all of the other things I also do something else, I ask a question, "Why?", why do we do these things, why do I struggle hard to achieve these grades from normal human beings, why do they get to tell me me that I am educated...well I at least know I am educated enough to tell myself that I am. That's how life works, all your life you are just performing in order to get approval from people you don't even know and if they don't approve you, you are forced to live a government aided life, and living paycheck to paycheck on some  dead end 9 to 5 minimum wage job. That's not fair, just because you are failed by the systems standards. All life is like this, and it sucks that we all have to live this way, and we can't change this. I wish we could, but the worst part about this horrifying fact is that it is the only way of life that is fair, and it works. Maybe someday we can find another way, and on that day we will start a revolution and fight to be treated equally as thinkiing individuals. Until then I will be in this class...